kiddbeatz:

As if the past 4 years were only yesterday. From the day I stepped up looking up at that big sign “Welcome to Humber College…” ‘til the day I glanced back at it knowing I am done. Everything seems to pass by so fast. I can’t believe it, it’s still so overwhelming. I remember exactly the first day…

As if the past 4 years were only yesterday. From the day I stepped up looking up at that big sign “Welcome to Humber College…” ‘til the day I glanced back at it knowing I am done. Everything seems to pass by so fast. I can’t believe it, it’s still so overwhelming. I remember exactly the first day of my First year, sitting by myself at break not knowing anyone, daydreaming about the day I’ll have to dream back about this day that I’m sitting here dreaming about. Does that sound crazy? Nope. I’m doing it right now. Let’s rewind.

Four years ago, I was not, and definitely, who I was now. I was unkempt, dirty, annoying, and totally unaware of my responsibility as a student. It was too hot to even think about listening to the speakers explain how my next four years were going to be. High expectation from the profs, but mine was set as low as ground zero. Back then, games and TV were my priority, school wasn’t.  

Time flew by. Next thing I know it was the end of the second year. Where was I? Still at the same school surrounded by the same people doing the same tedious jobs as usual. Even my poor academic reports reflected my lack of interest in school. Oh well, I was too young. Why should I care, right? Wrong. Everything started catching up to me. My mind grew a little more conscious about school.

I almost failed second year but thank God, I didn’t. It was then that I finally realized where I’m standing in life. I was on the edge of corrupting myself. Third year arrived. I got more and more serious about school, I woke up. 

By the end of the year, I changed my life around. Realized, I should really focus more on school than anything else around me. I brought my grades up, and reassured my responsibility as a daughter and a student. My marks went up, I realized who my real friends were and they had more respect for me than ever before. I had myself back, and most important, I was better than my past.  

Today, I can’t help but to be proud of who I’ve become. I go around talking to kids who are hitting that same stage I was years ago and encourage them to be better and work harder in life for whatever their future endeavors put them through. That’s why I enjoy spending one-on-one time with people, or a group, and tell my past. It might not sink into some of you, but believe me, it’s so much more when you have to experience it yourself. Ask me to sit down and talk to you and I’ll gladly do.